iain is coming to see me in december. this time a month from now I will be hyperventilating, freaking out daily, and panicking with the enormity of our relationship and how much I love him. I am so, so excited. it is impossible to describe how happy he makes me, how happy I am, because there are no words. It is innumerable and indescribable and even the most perfect song doesn't do it justice. Love.

"Nelly, I am Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being! - If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it."


all this feels strange and untrue
and I won't waste a minute
without you